project "Made in USSR" 2011
The project reflects my inner contradictions in the context of the heightened and the melodramatic. I am curious a image of internal confusion and frustration in my hypertrophied and allegorical form. I paint using my own body, gestures, big strokes causing the paint and text. My own body is the main subject of the painting. I am focusing the viewer's attention on the attitudes, emotion and body language. I do not aim to paint an accurate portrait of me, but I want to create a clear and complete idea about self, about my time on the past and the future. These paintings are about me, about the complexities of the fragility of existence, about the crazy world in which I am trying to survive.
The visceral and emotional approach to this project is mainly associated with my homosexuality and is deeply rooted in my childhood and adulthood. I am trying to examine myself from different angles, misshapen and psychopathic traits. I am painting my body, which emits a person and not a sexually attractive and ideal homo-erotically glamorous body. I lead a dialogue on a different type of sexuality, of identity, the confrontation of conceptual understanding of self and others.
I also invite the viewer to consider not only the technical aspects of my paintings, but also to find a metaphor, GREAT story and mythology, where every topic is closely linked to the idea of the psychology of illness and recovery. I am using personal stories in pictures, but they have a universal background and themes.