Heart fluttering Painting

In 2021, I decided to paint at the age of 37. What do you want to draw? Me? ...... Rose... a bouquet of roses. I felt ashamed for some reason. Can I portray the beauty of roses? I longed for roses. Someone asked me if I wanted to draw flowers when I was still young. He said that the time to draw flowers seemed a little early. It seemed to think that not roses, but natural objects, were the muses of older people. It's not like there's a right answer. I just drew what I wanted to draw I usually drew roses, but sometimes I also drew a cake. I felt good when I saw the cake. I thought I wanted to draw it, maybe because the shape or color was pretty. Then I suddenly wondered. Why do I feel good when I see roses or cakes? There are many other targets. Oh... I realized that I wanted to draw 'heart fluttering'. The memory of me receiving roses, the memory of me presenting roses. I don't remember the shape of the flower clearly, but the heart fluttering at that time remains in my mind. That's why the heart fluttering comes to life just by seeing someone carrying flowers or just looking at the bouquet displayed at the flower shop. The same goes for cakes. The memories of my birthday wishing while blowing candles and the pleasant memories of being with the cake on a happy day make me think that I want to put them on paper. I draw heart fluttering.