In the dark Painting

I remember myself from the age of six. At this age, I just started to draw. For as long as I can remember, I have been drawing. And almost always they were portraits. At first I painted my mother's portraits, she still keeps them. Every face and portrait hides a mystery, some kind of mystery. Especially in the eyes. Many people tell me that I draw living eyes. Drawing eyes is always very sensual. So I'm a portrait painter. Although I do not have a completed art education. She left the university, something went wrong. But in order to draw, education is not needed. The main thing is desire. I love the whole thing. And I have a goal, to unravel the mystery of the eyes. Lately I've been tempted by some kind of abstraction. Morea, oceans .. Water is the element that I'm afraid of but I want to depict on the canvas.