Longing for Lightness Painting

As an abstract painter I am interested in what happens in the world of a painting when serenity is invaded by a chaotic jumble of randomness. There is a moment, or a series of moments that are pivotal in the creation of a painting... perhaps the same can be said, in the creation or living of a life. In that spirit I am pouring, scraping and blotting paint, creating a kind of managed chaos. After the rush of adrenaline subsides, it is then my job to meditate on the results and work with them until the painting feels "right." I want the marks on the canvas to talk to each other, for the layers to interact, for the process of how the painting was built to be apparent.