Portrait Painting

Humans die from the moment they are born. It could be said that he was born to die. It was because I became aware of this death that I thought I knew, of course, that I was falling into a swamp of depression and anxiety. The average life expectancy of modern people is 82.7 years old, but can they live for 80 years without any variables in their lifetime? From cancer, traffic accidents, falls, drownings, murders, and unexpected epidemics, can I reach the age of 82.7 safely without facing a sudden death that will deprive my life? The possibilities of death in this everyday life that no one can predict accurately plagues my mind. Humanity has always devised a strategy against the inevitable fate of death. In the early Middle Ages, the death of an individual was identified with the death of the community and was treated as a public event. Indeed, death itself was not so scary to them unless they left the community alone. In the heyday of the Middle Ages, God's judgment appeared to individuals outside the sense of community, and they focused on going to heaven through judgment rather than death itself. Death is connected with morality, and if we obey the rules of morality, we can overcome death and even hope for eternal life. In the Renaissance and Baroque periods, the strategy of combating death has also disappeared for those whose faith is disappearing. The important thing in the romantic era was 'your death'. The death of a beloved lover is sad but beautiful, and the sadness of my own death is relatively forgotten. Was there such a romantic age as death? In the age of World War, there was a fierce confrontation between man and death. Individuals who were not willing to God and left behind in the collective deaths of human beings were simply trying to heal wounds. Now, it is 2020. What is the strategy to deal with the death of this era when there is no war in hand, romance in the romantic era feels rustic, no more gods, no judgment, no community? Death is now in the hospital. Death is now in the hands of the doctor. We die alone in a corner of the hospital, in a body that fails to extend life. We are defenseless to death. So how do I overcome my fear of death in an era of no strategy? My first task against death was to create an Absolute. While immersed in setting up and visualizing the virtual Absolute, I hoped that I could really believe in, trust, and believe that there was a world after him. But I was more atheist, and this strategy eventually failed. Since then, I have been looking for strategies by creating pseudo-vanitas. Vanitas' purpose is to awaken Memento Mori, which is paradoxical in that it encourages life and at the same time implies the meaninglessness of life. In addition, still life is a genre that began with the desire to possess objects. Reproducing motifs that are unconsciously reminiscent of life-threatening objects and deaths on an independent canvas is an attempt to discover, uncover, and analyze images to find out the unconscious reality and psychological strategies to prepare for death in it.