The Catering Assistant Painting

I suppose he meant something positive I actually returned to work 6 months after having my baby Taking up a job which took us, abroad Returning to England in the latter part of 1986 More confident and determined to let go of religious torment, indoctrination, and fear To live life In a way that was completely opposite Of all I was not allowed to do! Things perceived by the perceivers of religion As worldly, and sinful A perception I never agreed with, and felt that I saw through But nonetheless was to grow up feeling forced to become accustom too I think like cigarette packets Religion Films The Bible Ought to come with warnings For the escapism, delusion, and fantasy even, they have created around, and about reality, and truth about mental health, and the naming of narcissistic behaviours, and personality orders, and much more, and at times the lack of differentiation of what is in fact just normal ^ Normal people Doing normal things Each generation builds the powers that be We all have our inch to nudge the world along to a better place! Every car has a mechanic who knows how to fix Working alongside the technician that actually built the model That is a given It is exactly the same for each human brain Yet there are organisations, or institutions who appear at times Not to take a blind bit of notice of the health professionals who can, change the way we all behave! ^ Biblical parables, in some cases have been used to replace the mental health diagnoses, and issues which has continued to delude the perception of generations Some of who believe All the answer’s of life Lie in what has been written out In the cryptic parables Terms of use Found in the bible Or in what some religions generally, use! ^ It was in these times I found hands on healing A comfort to me! ^ I suppose in some way He was just Trying to be friendly But, I had a very prickly nature Especially, when it came to anything to do with family ^ I could not fully find my footing after what had happened to me whilst among them Sorry! But true! I could not find the freedom I genuinely felt I needed Everything about my life, and that connection seemed to be forever doomed to bad timing, and me, always saying the wrong thing! Having grown up being taunted by being called the most possessed thing! ^ I don’t know It was a memorable moment From the stand point of becoming more personally aware of how to fight off Crippling levels of shyness That defiance couples with Making it almost impossible to respond adequately on important occasion Possibly around maybe important, or influential people! The after effect of such “episodes” or “moments” Leaves an ongoing questioning Did I just blow something? Was there a chance of not anything romantic but of some other opportunity that would have freed me? Is that just a self-destructive fantasy? Was it really shyness or defiance? Or did your intuition guide you in what was in fact was, not just a shy, or defiant rebuff! But your own instinct picking up on something else, and guiding you away from someone who was, could be, or was to become someone incredibly dangerous? Maybe because of their own hard work, and success that may completely oppose the type of freedom you were yourself going to go on, and chose! An interesting moment to remember Least of all when after Easter 2007 I came to realise I was being stalked again with the history of my employment becoming of interest to certain individuals! At the time it was a financial struggle Trying to work for not much more money than the rent owed Child minding fees taking up at least a quarter of all earned Needs and other bills were a stretch The system at the time Coupled with a lack of financial education Meant to survive remaining unemployed for a while was of more benefit in one sense Though mostly completely demoralising On the other hand It was the only way to devote the very necessary time needed to raise someone who would grow up to be a good, and decent child, an individual grounded, able to love, and be loved! Blazing an incredible career path, and life trail with a deep passion, and love for the people who are friends, in some cases beyond the strength of any family! Whilst I was able to achieve There was still a lot of personal work to be done I still feel completely sick, and filled with disbelief if complimented I was not just damaged I had to find ways to live, and be because of what was severed The truth of what was behind me Did not automatically mean Unfortunately That I could just heal it Or leave it! ^ It has been only in my art Being able to create a visual of the memory That miraculously has really helped me Especially, after having gained a lot of weight since these times After spending the past 2 years Creating, and learning how to self-publish my own books Creating these illustrative paintings Has completely changed my focus Opening up Widening The possibility, and the effect healing has on me Strengthening my ability to see myself within the context of the experiences I was having!

Painting:Acrylic on Paper

Original:One-of-a-kind Artwork

Size:3.5 W x 4.7 H x 0 D in

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