aggressive Painting

I am 40 years old, I live in a small Russian city. I am an artist with a pedagogical education, I teach children and adults fine art. But it wasn't always like that, yes, I've been drawing since childhood, but it was just a hobby, but at one point I told myself that I wanted to live for my own pleasure and do what I like, it was a turning point in my life, I left high-paying jobs and began to write everything that came to mind! At first I gave my paintings to friends and acquaintances, they were mostly landscapes and portraits, and then I decided to write something unusual, new for myself! And it turned out to be even more interesting! I think I have an unusual style, although it's like everyone has their own handwriting! In my paintings, I reproduce not only the beauty of nature and people, but also try to look into the other world, especially in the process of drawing, I fall into a certain state in which I feel everything differently, and sometimes I see something else, but it's not always something good!