ENcoding/CP1251 Painting

I was born in the outskirts of the Bulgarian mountains and I had a careless and happy childhood and frequently wandered through the meadows and forests outside of my hometown. During my free time I was also engaged in knitting, weaving and making embroideries, but my true artistic journey begun some years ago. I was searching for an enthusiastic occupation - I graduated a computer science master’s degree - fulfilling a dream I was unable to, in my younger years. Still that achievement did not satisfy me, nor working in an office looked as promising as before. In May 2018, after dreaming that I had to listen to my inner voice, I began painting. At first, I sought for some formal education, to help me evolve faster, but soon I found out that any interference, even the smallest one changed the direction of my emotional flow, when laying out the paints and sometimes made me feel at loss. Having that mind, I finally gave it up and allowed the emotions to lead my hand, during painting. When I paint, I usually enter a specific, altered state of mind - it happens often that I don't remember how exactly I did some of my works and I cannot repeat them. I love mysteries and hidden meanings... I look for the diverse, the extraordinary and transfer that passion within my works. Each of them contains a part of my worldview and there are always messages, even if they are not deliberately sought by me. Sometimes they are just words embedded in a little chaos and sometimes they are intertwined among the thoughts and emotions that I wish to convey. When I'm in special mood, I love to create paintings which help people deal with certain emotions, fears or complex life situations. Once completed, the paintings begin to have a live on their own. They speak, cure and soothe, when they resonate with the person observing them. Through the picture, I set a base template, and the full presentation is completed within the viewer's soul. Also, communing with the same painting, each and every one creates a slightly different story. Those stories enrich me too - they are often unique and may be completely different from what was originally laid out. Life is a mystery.