Chaotic Craziness Series . - 2189.041114 Painting

The need to create has always been there, ever since I was a little girl. It is a primal one, not an academic one which is why I chose to for the most part skip the academia route aside from a couple of classes. It always felt as if the best classroom was in the studio, doing the work and following my intuition and then the words would come later. Sometimes they do and sometimes they don't. More often they don't since having had 4 concussions and a permanent Brain Injury Disability since 2004. With that said, I am drawn to color, shapes and movement in that order mostly but not all the time. I think it is important to give the color space to breathe in order to be understood and really seen and not crowded too much. I like to give it space to dance, to move, to let the viewer imagine what the painting could have looked like seconds before it was finished and if it was alive what could it have looked like moments after it was created. This I feel describes my earlier works. I feel that it is necessary to push myself, my boundaries as an artist and in staying true to my nature as a person and artist I evolve to let more complex structures into my life like my recent Disjointed Reality body of work and it's derivative Worn & Torn. My more recent works encapsulate a putting back my 'disjointed' life', since finally being stable enough, after many years of instability since acquiring my Brain Injury, & even though I feel 'worn & torn' because of life's challenges, through it all I still chose to create something meaningful, something beautiful, instead of getting caught up in 'what might have been.' My "Playful Reality Series" is most recent and quite new and fresh for me and is still in its infancy. My "Playful Reality Series" is just that! Me finally getting caught up into the playful reality of happiness and joy after coming out the other side of so many losses in my life. I paint a matrix image or start out with one of my paintings I created from a large body of work from many years ago, to help direct me to where the energy and movement of the paint will go. I keep it as organic, playful and freeing as possible since in my past I have lost so much due to a debilitating injury. By making the choice to be more carefree and open with my work I am inviting new energies into my world, which is very much appreciated and welcomed! I hope you enjoy these pieces as much as I enjoyed creating them for YOU!