In some way you are already dead Painting

Born in Beaver Dam, Wisconsin, Kendra Lynn Bulgrin attended the University of Wisconsin Whitewater where she received a Bachelor of Fine Arts with an emphasis in painting and a minor in Japanese Cultural Studies in 2005. After graduating from high school, Bulgrin participated in a cultural exchange and lived in Japan for a year, during which she studied the language, arts, and culture. Bulgrin earned an honorary degree from Numata Girls School in 1999. Consequently, her journeys led her to an introspective life of painting, language study, and an interest in science. Bulgrin draws from a unique vantage point as an adopted child and continues to explore the complex issues surrounding her identity and past.
Bulgrin has shown nationally and internationally, with shows at the Brooks Museum of Art, Memphis, and at Beijing Normal University, China. Recently Bulgrin completed her MFA at Memphis College of Art.
< Longing/Belonging: Faraway/Nearby Kendra Lynn Bulgrin My oil paintings examine the longing for identity and the subsequent expectations associated with identity and memory. I question how identity is constructed through images, family, home, memory, and the miniature. My interest in the image as a ground of identity and memory stems from the personal struggle to understand and cope with my identity and past as an adopted child. At times, I see myself as living two separate lives. This feeling of separation, disconnection, and the recent reunification of my pasts have played an important role in my work. Growing up, I had always imagined my biological family. I developed a set of overtly idealized images. I contrived expectations of who and what they could be and kept these ideals as stand-ins for them. Finding my biological family left the conundrum of the stand-in versus the real. I found myself the questioning the replacements and thus asking again Who am I? In my artworks, I turned to images and their relationships to "originals." The burden of longing for something at an unattainable distance in both memory and reality has been an important struggle within my work. I began working with the miniature farm set from my childhood and began taking photographs, often with dramatic and intense lighting. The translation of these photo-scenes to oil paint on panel unwound the knot of certain relationships that I wanted to address visually.