Suspicious Painting

This is the first time ever that I share my artworks with some strangers. I choose to start with this portrait because in the eyes of this person I see a lot of myself. Everytime I make I portrait it feels like I'm generating a new human being with his own personality, emotions, fears, thoughts. When I finish to paint I just observe this person and try connect with him/she. Sometimes I also talk to them. In her eyes there is the same fear that I often feel, and I feel very connecteted to her. I started painting using a photo as a reference but after I while I continued the work without using any references, cause I needed to put something in the portrait that I couldn't fid in the picture that inspired me in the beginning. I think that painting is a flow of instincts and feelings and I just follow it. I paint what I feel, I paint my pain, I paint new life generated by the color. And I paint humanity, I hope. Im not interested in perfection, I just want to be real. Technical informations: hanging hardware is so far not included, but I can provide it, also based on your own preferences. Canvas is canvas cardboard actually, pretty good quality in my opinion. Oil colour is one of the best that I've ever tried (van Gogh series 1).