phantoms Painting

A woman, a mother, a painter, a part of the universe .. She was born and finished a school in Kazakhstan. Got her degree in economy in Siberia. Lives form 2009 in Moscow. The way of a painter as she herself presents it: “In the beginning of 2014 amazing things have started to happen in my life. Once while sitting on a bench downtown of a big megapolis I raised my eyes and looked upon the sky.. there where the birds fly. Suddenly everything got silent and things around me seemed to disappear … while I fly there, in that sky with my friends birds. After that my usual world started to change it’s shape becoming very different, becoming the world of sensations. The sky, trees, grass, buildings, people - everything around me became so light and natural, real and alive. Those feelings were overwhelming me. There.. became… so much of myself. From inside out out of myself clots of emotions and sensations were breaking free… Once one my friend painter proposed to me to paint something. I took a brush in my hand and everything around me have disappeared again. I didn’t know if i were there again or I ceased to exist and the time got still. In that day I have done three paintings. And so I started to paint. It often seem to me that it have passed no more than 20 minutes while the clock says it was all day. I never know what will come out on canvass when I take a brush to paint. I never know which colors, lines or figures will be there - everything happens by itself. I feel myself being a vehicle, I feel myself as an open portal of the Universe. Than for hours I stare at my finished paintings. They are filled with me and with cosmic energy. They are alive as everything in this world.Words are not enough to describe the state of being when I paint .. and that feeling anyway isright there in my works. So all that I do now is paint one painting after another. That’s my way, that’s my joy.. that’s my life.