A Place For The Koi to Swim Painting

I love to paint nature in the abstract form as I feel it. I try to capture that energy, the movement, of the natural world. My innate and incessant feeling and filtering energy is what drives me to paint the crazy way I do.  I have dealt with chronic pain from degenerative joint disease and fibromyalgia for 18 years.So I have a difficult time sitting or standing for long periods of time. Not having the circumstances to have a proper studio combined with my physical challenges,one day I was inspired to paint in the place I go to relieve my joint pain, my big garden tub. I can sit in my tub and paint for hours on end with very little pain. I can sit in positions I can't sit outside the tub..and I have water and a drain right there. I had a very artistic mother and a father with good taste and culture. When I was very young he took me to galleries and museums. I knew as a child art was the pinnacle of society. Not "high" society but the evidence of a society at all. To me art was also the collecting of things and I began collecting a lot of little things like postcards and books. As a survivor of domestic abuse, art has saved me. During those dark years I created art and curated galleries virtually, in secret. And now I am free and have only just begun. I have a deep vision for the future of my work. Not just pretty paintings but messages about our global environmental crisis. I still remember my first drawing and paintings from elementary school. My parents didn't seem to think much of it but I did and still miss my paintings of swan, deer and mice. In middle school years, everything I wrote was about art and culture. My 5th and 6th grade teachers used copying encyclopedia pages as a punishment for not doing homework, which I never did. Didn't make me do the actual homework, just copy those pages. This did not make sense. But I didn't care, I was learning about Monet and DaVinci. In northern Wisconsin though a girl's art dreams were pretty irrelevant in the late 1980's.So I spent 25 years as "chief cook and bottle" washer for my family. I made a few paintings over those years,but my life was completely devoted to raising kids and husbands. I did go to one show for the Tolkien Society at Oxford. I only had two paintings; The Two Trees of Valinor, Rivendell Overlook and some fun cast interview portrait sketches. I had to get a separation from my husband to be able to do that. But like most mentally abused women, I went back, a few times.15 yrs.