Giving birth to corpses Painting

They say I was very creative from the birth and was also cursed. And this curse was passed on from my great-great-grandfather, who did not share the land with a neighbor - local shaman. For the fierce enmity and intransigence of my ancestor, the shaman brought curses on him and on 7 generations of descendants. Such a family legend was told to me by my great-grandmother, then by my grandmother and mother. I didn't take it all seriously. For me it was something from the fairy tales of the Brothers Grimm. I just lived, studied, built a career, did business and created at the same time: I painted in oils, did graphic design, developed logos and corporate identity, web sites for my business projects. One of my first creative business experiences was the publishing of the offline magazine, where I combined the functions of a director and a designer. But after graduating from university and receiving a diploma in international finance and corporate management, I professionally moved to build a career in the investment bank as a stockbroker. After working for more than 5 years in a comfortable & exciting position, professional burnout set in. In parallel, I always started, tried, launched and closed small and medium businesses - those were far from always successful experiences. Trade, finance, tourism, construction and heavy industry manufacturing. Further, as in some movie about the amusement park - a series of ups and downs. I hit the ceiling and then always followed a steep dive, along the way taking my health & nerves. Pictures of that period were gloomy and depressing. And just at that moment I remembered a family legend with a curse. The suppressed mind tried to find answers, to find the reasons for constant failures, life's turmoil and complete hopelessness. I began to study the legend in detail, then to study the ancient shamanic practices, rituals, stories and experience of different peoples in the field of shamanism and spiritualism. The ancient Maya and Aztecs, the Shamans of Amazonia, the incredible experience of Carlos Castaneda, Zoroastrianism, Toltec teachings, Tao, Kabbalah, Shintoism and Buddhism... I soaked everything up trying to unravel my mystery.