Little more to heal don't give up Painting

I paint as I experience the world. I am walking with abstraction since my very beginning with painting, I actually never called it that way it was more or less obvious for me since my first contact with the brush and the paint that I will let my mind do the job and my hand will just follow them as a toy of expressing or creating the moment of now that I so do love to exist in the process of painting. This way that so far there is no other name rather than calling it Abstraction I am developing even before my years of studying at The Academy of Fine Arts in Wrocław, Poland till the moment of now. My way of painting and themes differs according to the media I am using at the moment or the mind I am in whether I do exist in the virtual way that is no longer the one to not to be part of or whether I am looking an escape from it through more tangible more intimate processes and analysis in my painting, drawing or sound. I have a big respect for the tradition of abstract painting but I can not say that my first abstract painting arrived from there, however the longer I research in the theory abstraction and its phenomena when it was all still new I do become more familiar with the knowledge that probably affected my way of approaching into an abstract painting or a drawing of now. I do go on with my own dialogue my own fight on the canvas my own performance on it and with it, my own scream, and my own balance, creating from the chaos to an order of the things that I feel the painting or drawing should walk for now. I call it often my conflict of codes by which I am trying to communicate find the language with others who can read it or not. I do follow the fact that the meaning of the painting and the experience of an abstract work is in the moment of now in front of the work whether with the artist in his studio when the work is done the experience of making it is left on the surface of it and the meaning of the work become to speak to us and analyze it from our own experience of it and way no matter if its new way or the continuation of the previous one we do need time to digest it to adopt in ourselves so does the viewer. The viewer creates a totally new meaning for an abstract work whether from watching it in the book album from a photograph or in real in the space of gallery etc. I do believe these all meaning are a new life for the work to exist to be the language for its own world to just be.