Missing my purity of soul Painting

In my life I have always been fascinated by forms and colours, but in the past I was not aware of the harmony in the background. From 1989 my activities were focused on the fashion industry as a fashion designer, this was followed by interior design. After fifteen years, I desired something new, unknown, so not only did I give up my enterprise, I left everything behind myself. This was the beginning of a rough path, as I was on a mission of spiritual development and search for reality. After a long time, I realized that the difficult and never ending pathing of self-exploration with many changes. So I gave up searching and stopped. To my great surprise, it was at this point that everything I had been searching for up to that time revealed itself to me. In the harmony that connects colours and forms I recognized myself, and by now it has become clear to me that I only need to let reality manifest itself through me. I have been painting since then. In my life I have always strived for perfection, not realizing that manifestation true to the given moment and to the person cannot be anything else than perfect.