"My Spine is Your Horse" Painting

I am a self-taught artist, work with ink and acryl-ink on fabric, paint with my hands. The entire painting process, from selecting the ideal grey cotton fabric, ironing it, and feeling every single wrinkle, is important to me, and I see each act in this process as a kind of prayer, part of an existential ritual. Over the last five years, I have developed a unique painting technique which I call abstract animistic expressionism. I begin painting without a plan or predetermined forms. Shapes emerge naturally as I work, guided by instinct and in collaboration with the water, plants, and seashells that are the co-creators of the painting as I try not to force anything. The painting process becomes a ritual-like event in which the boundaries between my subconscious and superconscious, as well as between the unified field and my individual self, begin to blur. My method echoes the tradition of abstract expressionism, recalling artists like Helen Frankenthaler who poured pigment freely and honored the medium’s natural flow. Yet, my approach encompasses eruptive and instinctive emotional expression, is influenced by movements from Aikido, and has animistic aspects. Through dynamic throws of color and water, I create a controlled chaos together with the active presence of the water and plants as subjects, experience the tension between destruction and creation, and follow my instincts. The emotional intensity of the painting process makes me explore emotional and dramatic depths and transcendent moments, through which the boundaries between my consciousness and subconsciousness as well as shapes and movements get blurred.