"Seagull Lago di Garda" Painting

Hello. I am me :) I have always considered myself to be a strange person. I have never fit in, in any kind of group actually. I am a smart woman with difficulties convincing myself to sit down and study, but somehow I made it thru two universities. I am a biker who still enjoys being someone’s backpack. I am a mom with many issues hoping to raise my child the best way I possibly can. I am very strong independent woman, who was brought down and destroyed by narcissistic abuse. I love numbers, economy and my management corporate job, still wishing to become full time artists while I am actually afraid to become full time artist dependent on making money with art, because I am scared I would loose the passion for art once it becomes my livelihood. So for now, I continue with my life as it is and put all of my joy, pain, strength, tears, fears, bruises on canvas hoping to share the incredible range of emotions with world. One day maybe I will be putting my full story on paper to finally heal and hopefully spread awareness of the toll that abuse can leave on ones soul. For now I use the brush to let the emotions out. As you can see, I am full of contradictions, which could possibly be explained by ADHD diagnosis I recently got. Maybe now I will finally find my own "cookbook" for life ;)