"The adventures of a blessed scapegoat" Print

I am a serial creator: a musician and visual artist of Dutch/German origin. I have produced a lot of very diverse work like songs, dance-tracks, piano music and ensemble pieces but also collages, poetry and educational ‘Freedom’ tote bag. Despite this I still feel like I have hardly begun. I am as a visual artist self taught and work intuitively but as a work starts to take shape, I add immense detail and hidden messages. I consciously try to contribute to the beauty in this world and don’t care if a piece takes me forever. I am not a beginner anymore and now understand that I am a receiver of energy and grace; a translator of creative/primal force who sometimes uses the medium of image and at other times sound or words. Originally a jazz singer and rock n’ roll freak trying to live outside the ‘normal/mundane’ world, I still have a phobia for authority and am scared of obedient people. After two nervous breakdowns and a million boyfriends, I am now a yogini who is still addicted to doing what I love. That this is often difficult in a culture obsessed with materialism, appearances and competition, which continually broadcasts messages of fear, lack and limitation doesn't surprise me anymore. Although I have been a critical thinker and have been ‘awake’ for many years, the last few years of global tyranny, manipulation and propaganda have shown how easy it is to divide people and how passive, institutionalised and addicted to our own enslavement we have become. This was scary but has convinced me to stay even more connected to the fantastically beautiful, mind-blowing ocean that we continuously swim in filled with joy, fun, awareness, hope, humour, kindness, fellowship, creativity, vision, wisdom, abundance, knowledge, ecstasy, solidarity, compassion, connectedness, expansion, revelation, truth, power, blessings, miracles, wisdom and freedom. Also known as the real thing: God aka love. Greed, tyranny, abuse, ignorance, bankers wars, consumerism, suffering, isolation, misogyny, manipulation, monoplolies, totalitarianism or ‘the gleichschaltung’ (look it up!) are not only very boring and limited ideas, but are also 180 degrees opposed to the way nature itself functions and have thus been outdated from day one. Let’s never shut up and tell different stories to our children and stand our ground and reclaim heaven here on earth now. I currently live as a global nomad, a grateful freestyler living in a parallel universe of infinite riches.