Rajatila / Borderline Print

Finnish title: Rajatila English title: Borderline Acrylic painting on plywood. Framed. "Rajatila" is pretty much a direct translation from "Borderline" and it is an outdated name for what is now in Finnish called "unstable" personality disorder. It is still called "borderline" in English. Hard to believe that after having this painting idea and a mighty need to get it out into the world it would only take one six hour session to get it painted. (That is without the time the backround, varnishing and painting the frame took). Believe it or not, I didn't use pictures of myself as reference here. It's a self portrait in many ways but it wasn't supposed to be my face ?. I suppose that is what happens when you paint something so personal about your own life experience. For sure those are not my ears or teeth though. But yeah, this painting is about what life is like for me a lot of the time. I can go through every possible emotion in a day in any order and it can make things hard and exhausting. I've always lived life in superlatives and every feeling gets overly intense. I had to make a painting about it because I'm constantly thinking about my personality disorder and doing my best to become a more stable human in therapy.