With Me Print

My heart will never be whole again. A part of it died with you, my love. This part of me will travel by your side where ever your soul is going. I have so much love for you. And now, when you are gone, it hurts, it burns the walls inside me. It poisons my body. Because the fire of love is not for inside. It was for you, to keep you warm, to bring the light along the way you're walking. You died and now to stop the pain, I need to sease my love fire. But how? The moments we spent together were so beautiful! You were the most amazing, purest little thing that ever crossed my path. But it weren't just you. You did awake so much love in me, you brought hope. And on this hope I built so many plans. In those plans our life together did happen. In my mind we already lived through so many grate moments. How come, now I have memories of us that never happened. And never will. I didn't have any power to stop you from dying. But how can I kill the whole world of us, that is so alive inside of me? I probably shouldn't. I will die on it's own anyways. It can't survive now, without hope. You were the one bringing the hope. You're gone. And that beautiful world, that was our home, is becoming a dark and a scary place to me to be at. I need to leave and abandon all my dreams there. Oh God! What was your plan for me? Why would you fill me up with so much joy, just to take it all back, leaving me empty. I wish sometimes it all never happened to me. And I'm so sorry for that, my love. But it's just too much to take. It's only the moments of weakness though. Despite all pain, the miracle of us I witnessed is so grate, that I would go through all this hell again to feel it. And every moment that we spent together, is forever mine. Oh God! I wish we had more time. But even a moment that we had together... For it I'm grateful. Medium: acrylic