An inside gaze Painting

Series "An own gender inside" Very often since my teenage, people mistake to my gender. Well, it doesn’t matter, I’m used to, I was born with it. I must say I’m pretty proud of it. I acquired this identity.
 But I’ve always wondered why I should be either a male or a female. The feeling to be none of them really suits me. Gender is neither sex nor face. I guess I love women because I’m female inside. Lesbos gave me the way. So what’s up my genre ? What’s my kind ? Why should I be more female than gorilla or fish ? Am I really a female inside ? Am I not simply a repressed macho ? What a mess ! I’m just a bipolar noodle lost in the bowl, swimming in its mind. What about my gender inside ? Everyone has their own gender inside.