"Bite The Bullet" Painting

 I specialise in Realism Art - I believe I have an eye for seeing things truthfully and an ability to tap into the depth of realism within a character of what I am painting being as precise and detailed as I can be rather than in visioning what I want to believe there story to be and getting carried away with my own ideas on a piece. Art found me when I was soulless, Realism spoke to me in such depth that it bought my soul back. To me Realism is an accurate detailed representation of a subject - not just in Art but in all aspects of life. My journey to becoming an Artist has been an unbelievable story - without the pain and suffering that I have been through I couldn't portray such deep emotion within my paintings. My story begins with an unknown life long battle with ADHD - from a young age I knew I was different and my imagination was immensely deeper than others. I saw no fear or consequences in life but I believed I had a good heart. My addictive nature landed me in a lot of trouble throughout growing up, I have a very determined mind and have always looked at life in such detail, but I repeatedly channelled my energy into dark paths, such as drug addition, drug dealing, multiple arrests, facing prison time, street fighting which caused me to lose the sight of my right eye, and finally having more than a few life threating incident’s . At the age of 21 I knew I had to change my ways for I was hurting all the people I loved and was about to lose everything. After a lot of soul searching I reached out professional help and was diagnosed with serve ADHD which means a small part of my brain is undeveloped. One of the many things this means is that I could not process the consequences of my actions, good or bad. I started taking the ADHD medication that the doctor had proscribed me but with each day I was being numbed to who Ireally was and who I actually connected with, losing my imagination and my attention to details along with my identitywas the most confusing and depressing time in my life, I was a completely different person to who I have known for the past 21 years but had to take these pills to fit into society. After a year had passed trying to conform to these soul stealing pills, I ended up in the worst situation of my life. Trying to commit suicide. I never expected to be in this position but I was fed up of destroying my family and loved ones around me.