The First Ray of Dawn Painting

Hectic Artist in a Hectic Self-Interview ===>> Originally I came from Russia. I am a December girl, loving winter, snowflakes, snowstorms, icicles and frost. I lived in several countries (Kazakhstan, Russia, Thailand, Ireland), but now I am in United Kingdom. I started to paint before I learnt how to write. In ex USSR countries are a lot of state (ruled and regulated by government) art schools. I started my education in one of the most amazing schools in Kazakhstan and finished in Russia. During my study I took part in several exhibitions but it was a long time ago and honestly I do not remember it quite good. But what I do remember is a mindfulness of creativity. Since I first realised that I can make metaphysical idea become a real piece of art, I mean the one you can physically touch, see, feel as an emotion... It is mind-blowing! I can't help myself stop do it over and over again. After art school I was painting and destroying all my art for almost 15 years. I was sure that as long as such genius Artist like Egon Schiele, Gustav Klimt, Vincent Van Gogh, Otto Dix existed I am a useless piece of crap so there was no point even to try. And the society itself used to think (I am talking about ex USSR countries) that Artists are time-wasters and will end their lives in poverty. Than one day in Dublin one of my sketches accidentally was seen by one of my friends. She said that it is cool and I should start painting again, that probably somewhere around there are people who would find my art great and would like to have it. That inspired me to give it a go. I constantly feel like I want to try everything, as much as I can and I do not get enough time. I wish I had several lives to spend them all into isolated place with endless art supply stock. All my art start with the emotion. I always paint emotions and which medium or technique I will use mostly depends on the emotional part of the idea. I guess I am one of the most hectic artist around, I do not have my own subject, my medium, my theme. I do what I want and how I feel it at exact period of time. All of my painting can be explained from my point of view and I really hope it makes my people around feel something too. I literally feel itching of my hands when I see heavy body acrylic paints and large canvases. I want to keep experimenting with palette knife and impasto.