"A New Pattern" Painting

I'm a self-taught artist fascinated by space, the vastness of our Universe, and the mysteries that lie beyond human understanding.

Since childhood, I have wondered what exists beyond Earth, beyond the fragile boundary between the air we breathe and the emptiness of space. We live on a tiny blue planet that we call home, perhaps believing that we are alone in an endless Universe. Yet we may not even begin to understand what lies beyond our world.

Only a handful of people have experienced space firsthand, leaving behind everything familiar to see Earth from the outside. I have never been there myself, although I have always dreamed of it. I imagine both the fear of being so far from everything you love and the overwhelming beauty of seeing our planet from a distance.

In my dreams, I travel thousands of light-years away, imagining distant nebulae, neutron stars, and worlds beyond our reach. Whenever I paint with oils, I try to capture not only the appearance of these cosmic objects but also the emotions and questions they awaken in me.

I often return to one thought: from a distance, the Universe looks incredibly beautiful, yet behind that beauty lies something far more complex. Somewhere, new stars and planets are being born, creating the possibility of new worlds and new beginnings. Elsewhere, stars die, worlds disappear, and chaos and destruction take over.

Creation and destruction. Birth and death. Beauty and horror.

All of this unfolds on a scale we can barely comprehend. We live as though our world will always remain unchanged, but what if everything we know and love could disappear in a single instant? Perhaps the most frightening thing is not the unknown itself, but our inability to imagine what we are not prepared to face.

This contrast between beauty and destruction is central to my work.

In some of my paintings, I portray a girl or a woman as a symbol of beauty, hope, and the birth of new life. To me, she represents something luminous and almost otherworldly, a reminder that even amid endless chaos, something beautiful can emerge.

But there is another side to this image.

Behind her beauty, behind the serenity of her presence, and behind the hope she represents, I want to conceal the truth.

The truth about what I know...