Broken Mirrors of Anxiety Painting

I don’t remember when exactly Anxiety took over my life, but I do remember the feeling of deep sorrow after a huge loss. During 3-month period, first I lost my last living grandparent, then I lost my favorite pet who was part of my family for 15 years and then I went to a doctor who didn’t recognize the symptoms of my anxiety disorder and I got wrong diagnosis, which reminded me of a well-forgotten fear I had since I lost my fiance at the age of 20. At this point falling into the arms of a deep depression was so easy to happen since anxiety and depression usually go hand in hand. I was smart enough to take care of myself as soon as I realized I need help and I started very intensive therapy with the best professional therapist I knew. Sometimes I was even taking 3 or 4 hours per visitation because I needed to get the answers to so many questions I have neglected so far. I had to take control over my emotional life again. I read tens of books, I made thousands of exercises and now I know the causes and the effects of anxiety or depression better even than my therapist. I also know that is a shame how the society, the media or health organizations do not give any publicity to the devastating power of anxiety and depression. Because usually the people who suffer from anxiety and depression feel embarrassed or ashamed of it, just because they don’t realize what exactly is going on and if they go to a regular doctor he is not interested in their emotional condition, but is in a hurry to prescribe a bunch of pills or even sometimes tell you to drink 50ml. of whiskey before you go to bed and relax. I have been there so I can tell you exactly how embarrassed, alone and desperate you feel, and if you try to talk to someone about it usually they tell you that the therapist is just robbing you taking advantage on your naivety and weak moment, or they judge you because you don’t know how to have fun, or they mock at you, or they get angry at you because you make them nervous with your never-ending worries of your spinning mind. It is so sad how we have forgotten to be kind, understanding and supportive. And is more than tragic that we have never been taught how to be emotionally intelligent and how important this is for each aspect of our lives. Most of us cannot even define each different emotion that we feel. For example the people who get fat easily do not recognize the difference between fear, anger and hunger, for them all these 3 feelings are hunger and that’s why they eat every time they feel upset about something. Anxiety on the other hand is the core of each worry you have. And in a way we get addicted to repeatedly imagine the biggest fears,dangers or tragedies of our mind as we somehow try to predict and stop them from happening. This same worry and the capability of sensing the danger definitely helped us survive through evolution. But what if these worries start to come out of nowhere, they are out of your control and your mind can’t deal with them anymore. You start to feel your heart beating faster, your body sweating and your muscles getting more and more tense. You can’t think of anything else, but the image of your biggest fear and eventually the biggest tragedy of your life. You can’t concentrate on anything, because anxiety undermines the intellect and your brain couldn’t process effectively any kind of information. You feel out of control, you feel naked, you feel scared to death and you can’t help it… those horrific images of your fears are spinning in your mind and cutting your brain like a broken mirror and you see each of your fears reflecting on each broken part of the mirror… This is how my “ Broken mirrors of Anxiety” was born… Anxiety disorder is the most common mental illness in the U.S. affecting 40 million adults at age 18 and older, which makes 18% of the population. Anxiety disorders cost the U.S. more than 42 billion dollars a year, almost one-third of the country’s 148 billion dollar total mental health bill and more than 22.84 billion of those costs are associated with the repeated use of health care services, because people with anxiety seek relief for symptoms that mimic physical illnesses. The five colors of anxiety are red, orange, yellow, green and blue...

Painting:Acrylic on Canvas

Original:One-of-a-kind Artwork

Size:26 W x 32 H x 1 D in

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