Vibrating Veins Painting

I am a large-scale, abstract, mixed media painter based in Los Angeles, California. I love asymmetry, I love odd colors and strange marks, and weirdness on the canvas. I consider myself just as peculiar as my work, and so I guess looking at my paintings is arguably the most authentic way to see me as a human being. I want viewers to be sucked into the energy of a piece because that's exactly what I do when I paint. I use lots of music to help me turn my brain off and turn my body on. I am an avid ecstatic dancer, and many times I think that painting and dancing are one in the same. When I dance, I move my body as if I'm painting. When I paint, I move my body as if I'm dancing. The truth is, I've never been able to express my deepest feelings and emotions through the literal. Words often elude me, and realism in my artwork never seemed to capture the essence of what I wanted to convey. I believe there is distinction between what we can perceive with our eyes and what we can feel in our souls; an otherworldly energy that connects us. I try to paint that energy. I try to remove ego, and anything grounded in literal realism, and paint what flows through me from the other places. I try to convey emotion, sure, but most of the time it's a sense of being. It might be a loving memory, or an angry rant, or a genuine confusion at what is happening. I try to explore and parse out what I would otherwise be banging my head against. Art is sort of my therapy, it's part release and it's part questioning what is happening inside my body and my heart, and sometimes my head as well. I find this life to be breathtakingly dualistic. It is at once incomprehensibly beautiful, down to the very simplest, most basic moments we experience and tiny things we can perceive. It is also overwhelming, confusing, challenging and at times unbearably painful. I try to find the beauty in this asymmetry.