"This fucked up world" Collage

Artist Statement/Bio: Im a talented, smart and beautiful young woman who attended the University of Connecticut to play college basketball and receive a FINE ARTS degree in photography from 2005 until 2010. I traveled to Indianapolis in the fall of 2010 to start fresh. To live my life my way for the first time. I am a young woman who is simple yet complex enough to confuse the world and myself, or maybe just myself. Art to me is everything. My art is my form of communication. I am able to communicate things that I cannot place into words. My art is about the battle on the inside. The push and pull of my thoughts, intincts, and emotions. I bare my heart and soul into pieces whether they are playful or dark and twisted. I have a constant battle of worth. All of my life I have been trying to earn my worth in things I do and accomplish. Worth in titles and certificates that honestly you dont remember. So wrapped up in being good you lose the simplicity of just being you. I strove for perfection but learned the hard way that does not exist. Perfection only brings you face to face with death. Then you have a choice to say "I DO" to satan or realize you can turn around and chose a different path. Luckily I woke up from a hell and chose life. You might ask yourself, " why is she telling me all of this?" Because I real. I am human. And that is what my art is about. Its real. Its in your face. Not everyone will like it, but to be honest I dont care. A good or bad reaction is a positive in my book because I want my auidence to feel. To just feel. We live in a society where feelings are put last and feelings are a sign of weakness. That if you cry you are less of a man or if you voice your opinion you are too much. That if you listen to your heart you won't be successful, or if you dont have a such and such job you are worth nothing. Screw that! We are a people of feelings and emotions. You people that are running away from your feelings, i feel sorry for you. Yes you will feel pain but that does not measure up to the experience of joy and happiness. I don't create artwork for others approval anymore except for my own. Im learning I will be misunderstood, talked about, degrated, praised, overlooked, criticized, and critiqued. BUT I please myself and that is I want. My only intention is to communicate my insides so I can stay alive. To balance the internal with the exterior. Art is everything. Everything is art. Cassie Kerns a.k.a CASSINOVA