A state of being Painting

The story of painting began for me a long time ago. I was in the second front bench of the elementary school, and when I was bored, I would find myself drawing on the back sheet of the notebook geometric shapes that randomly intersected, abstract lines that now conjure up images of the drawings our ancestors made in caves . Drawing relaxed me and was the first activity that introduced me to what I later learned is called "flow", a state of presence, energizing concentration, full involvement and joy in the process of the activity. Fast forward to when I had my first computer with an internet connection, I was looking for Van Gogh paintings. I had read Lust for Life, by Irving Stone, and was impressed by the story of the famous painter. By chance, Jackson Pollock's Number 31 also came my way. My reaction was: WOW! I didn't even know why, but it didn't matter. It was like reading a book in a second. Then I continued to re-read it all my life, each time understanding new things, impossible to express in words. Pollock's experience was more of a state of mind, a revelation. Only later did I learn that abstract art frees our brain from the dominance of reality, allowing it to flow into its inner states, create new emotional and cognitive associations, and activate states that are otherwise harder to access. Abstract art is like a puzzle, which the brain struggles to solve. And in the process of this resolution, we experience the Inexpressible. Even though I read about the system in which the brain works when we looking at an abstract painting, I kept the wow from the first meeting with Pollock until today: I look, I leave the rational second and feel. Just like then, long ago, I don't care why I feel all the explosion of inner states. I continued to draw, those cave drawings, that came out of my depths, without any intention or plan. I was even a Sunday painter for a while. During the time, passionate about psychology and literature, I worked in some fine bookstores, where I interacted fully with the artistic world. I wrote a lot, as a hobby, with no definite intention of publishing. Writing for me was catharsis, emotional discharge on paper. I also plan to write prose poems on the site about the paintings I have painted. I met my wife, together we set up a business with lighting fixtures, decorative and luminous letters, we have an amazing child and we are still moving forward through life together.