Parasite Drawing

Picture Diary Series - 20190828 I had a friend who was ostracized by an art academy when I was in high school. There were many reasons for the bullying, but the worst was the bad smell of sweat from the friend. People think of him felt Sympathy at first. But their minds gradually changed. Criticize, avoid, ignore. I was close to him, but at some point I was avoiding him. From then on, I felt a stench similar to his in my body. Whenever I felt that my body smelled, I was checked by my friends to make sure I didn't stink. The confirmation relieved me. Later when I recognized the fact, I found the relief to be very embarrassing and sad. These days, I still sometimes smell such nasty and sad smell. Whenever I smell such things from others, I try to avoid them as soon as possible. And I turn around and check my smell. I used to have someone to check on, but now I'm not sure who to ask. I don't think I smell it now, but I may smell it one day. But what's really scary is that there will be a moment when I can't feel that bad smell for myself. Today I'm becoming an ashamed and increasingly nasty person.