"Breeze", 2020 Painting

Once my ex-mother-in-law called me a "moral freak" I was a sweet sweet kid who talked to trees and believed in mermaids. It's hard for me to write about myself, it will take several volumes of books. I went through a lot of pain. My father beat me.I have learned to take pleasure in physical pain. For a long time, my cousin tried to rape me.As an adult, I survived 2 rape attempts. My father was brutally murdered by business competitors. After 6 years in Slovenia, a man killed my mother because of unrequited love. The man brought a grenade to the restaurant and detonated himself and her. there were many victims, and 2 corpses. The relatives wanted to establish custody of my sister and manage the property. I took over my sister's custody when I turned 18.I dropped out of university because I had to work hard.I came home and slept in my clothes. woke up and went to work. Soon after my mother's funeral.She and her husband fraudulently borrowed a lot of money from me and did not return it.Then I learned that they won the case for my mother's murder. And we have a lot of money. because in this country it was possible to file a claim for financial compensation even if the person who killed my mother died. Mom's mother wanted to bequeath her property to us.But her eldest daughter (I loved her so much) was placed in a psychiatric hospital under the pretext of "treating nerves." The grandmother committed suicide when she realized what documents she was signing while she was in the hospital. I married my first man and thought that all men are no less responsible than my father. For several years my husband has been struggling with his weaknesses.I was preoccupied with money.She earned hard, but always retained her moral character.I tried to close the financial issue for my sister, but I could not replace her parents. I felt betrayed because she talked to all those people who tried to deceive and rob us. In a few years, my sister herself will accuse my friend and me of stealing money. Because of jealousy, envy, or because when she was growing up she saw a lot of betrayal from relatives,& could not admit that we were on the same side with her. I lost my child... After divorce.Fell in love a couple of times& dreamed of traveling! After some time,I began to restore relations with my father's mother.I didn't make the same mistake as with my grandfather& let her die with my forgiveness.